Fascinating Day

We walked with the luscious trees around us, and beams of sunshine glazing down. We walked gracefully, with our faces painted to accentuate what was already naturally beautiful. It was a special day, each step on the golden pavements of Bradford taking us closer and closer to the immeasurably desirable place.
When we reached there, we gazed upon the sign. It read:
The Co-operative.

My body covers itself in goosebumps in writing this. A tear trickles down my cheek from the pain of being afar from it.
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OK, my creative writing needs some serious work. I enjoyed it though.
Today went by quickly.  I felt disappointed in myself, though, that I can't be a better host. I keep failing to do what I want, where I want to take you, it somehow happens to cancel.


I love the way my friends can open up. Either to me, or someone else - it always makes me happy when they always have someone to tell. Maybe one day I'll tell someone everything, but for now thoughts have enough difficulty never mind speech. But it was nice to know she felt that way too - she couldn't tell me. Whether she didn't want me to know or just couldn't talk about it is different but - I was glad that someone else feels that way too. Perhaps one day we can tell each other all of it. But I never will.

We sat in the garden tonight. I have a phobia of night Mahya, did you know? The dark in general, I can't sleep alone in complete darkness. This is a recent thing. But the cool night air in the garden tonight, listening to your voice and your story changed my relationship with the blackness outside. Not completely and probably only temporarily. Did you see how I jumped at that cat? The way I was constantly looking around me? I wanted to slap you when you turned my phone torch off. I seriously and honestly wanted to whack your face. It's daft, utterly and completely idiotic but it's true, and no-one knows. But tonight I didn't want to come back inside. I wanted to stay on that uncomfortable carpet and I wanted to keep breathing in the night and listen to you.

Thanks for that. I love you.
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